Ok, this is from my own blog, but i edited it as well.
Another great experience from God. I think i really see uniqueness in each congregation and as well as campuses and group. Likewise, in tertiary, they have their own unique point. They really worship God for who he is, despite not having comfortability or technology or whatever. They proved to me that they can worship God as who he is, just in spirit and in truth, not how good the place is. Camp at singapore vision farm, is really the first camp that i experience such dirtyness(?), not as comfortable as those at SSS or what, but i really enjoyed myself. God is slowly preparing us.
Well, i really love the presence of my caregroup more and more. I know i can really grow in this group because all of us are united in one, and i know when i fall, they will be there to help me. I know that deep down in my heart. I really want my caregroup to grow. Yeah, we can grow in quality and in quantity one right?? hehe.
One word that summaries my conviction in this camp is WHOLEHEARTEDNESS. Though is not in any point of teaching, but rather, when God spoke to me bit by bit, it really sums up in this word.I think i really a feeler, i feel and i do it. For eg, designing, when i have the feeling to design, i can design good designs and really put my all into it. However, when i don’t have the feeling to do it, i will procrastinate. If it is a must to do because there is lack of time, i will anyhow do it and just do it for the sake of doing it. Any i know most of the time, i dun have the feeling to do my work. Feeling come and go. Or if you all can't identify, how about studying? Sometimes you have this sudden urge to study and everything goes into your mind, and sometimes how hard to try to study, things can't go into your mind and you gave up.
I want to do things wholeheartedly base on the truth, because the truth doesn’t change despite of circumstances. Wholeheartedness doesn’t not delight in procrastination and doesn’t look at our own self. I foresee disappointments. I know as i put i whole heart in, and when i fail, i will face great great disappointment that i will be hurt deeply. I foresee that. But i know i had to grow. I know i had to not put my 50% heart in doing things only. I had to put 100% in everything even when i don’t feel like it.
Agape,
Valens